Lately, I have been focused on finding calm while in the midst of chaotic situations.

Sometimes it's relatively easy. At other times it seems almost impossible. Each day brings new challenges and new opportunities to rise above the challenges and bring the best version of myself into any interactions I have.

I have structured my days so that I have what I think of as 'calm breaks'. During these brief periods I will meditate, move my body, or listen to music to aid me in getting to a place where I can be both calm and focused.

These calm breaks have become a reward I give myself for working through challenges and provide respite when I've been making my way through emotional minefields.

We are living in chaotic times and although I am unsure of how things will unfold, I believe that if each one of us creates more calm in our lives it will greatly enhance our existence.

Today, my wish for you is that, no matter what challenges you're facing, you find the calm within the chaos. Nurture it and hold it close. It may be the very thing that will get you through it.

I have a very important question to ask you. That question is, "What would you rather be.... happy or fulfilled?" How you answer that question will give you insight as to where you are on your own evolutionary scale.

We are bombarded with ideas and practices regarding how to be happy. The pursuit of happiness has become a primary goal for some of us. We want to have a feeling of bliss permeating all levels of our existence.

We engage in new spiritual practices, buy the latest products, listen to the latest gurus and plan grand adventures. All in the pursuit of happiness. We believe if we are happy all else will fall into place. And if we cannot sustain that feeling of happiness we feel as though we've failed in some way.

Now, let me be clear, I am not knocking happiness. I've had incredibly happy experiences in my lifetime that have brought me much joy and contributed to the person I am in this space and time.

What I'm proposing is that perhaps instead of seeking to be happy we might try seeking to be fulfilled.

Happiness, as lovely as it is, can be fleeting.

Fulfillment will sustain you through any life circumstance you may find yourself in. Fulfillment will get you out of the bed in the morning to face whatever challenge awaits you that day. Fulfillment will allow you to go to sleep at night knowing you've done the best you could that day. Fulfillment will carry you through those times you thought would break you.

So, I'll ask the question again. What would you rather be... happy or fulfilled?"

If you are anything like me you may find it's easier to forgive others than it is to forgive yourself.

There are, I'm sure, a multitude of reasons for this and I've spent much time of late trying to figure how I can be easier on myself for the choices I've made and the effect those choices have had on me and others.

Sometimes I pretend that a client or someone I care for presents me with the same situation and I offer myself the words and compassion I would have extended to them.

At other times I judge myself harshly for the choices I've made and I turn to therapy and spiritual practices to help me gain a different perspective.

Part of being Human is making mistakes. Mistakes can be an effective way of learning and growing. The discomfort we feel can be a tool to help us make better choices going forward and the wisdom we garner can be shared with others to help them through similar situations.

Forgiveness is a balm to the Soul and a gift to Humanity. And don't we all deserve to receive that balm and gift?

This week I have had the absolute honour  and pleasure of attuning lovely Souls to the Higher Realm Healing® energies and guiding them through the process of their becoming Higher Realm Healing® practitioners.

Due to COVID and other responsibilities it was necessary to limit this aspect of my work and I missed it, greatly.

For now, I'm doing private and semi private training but I'm looking forward to the time when I will have the ability to do group workshops.

I am so very grateful for the opportunity to work with these Healing energies that allow me, and others, to fully actualize who we came here to be.

Today I have the honour of guiding a lovely Soul through a QHHT Past Life Regression.

The method I use, created by Dolores Cannon, is a safe and profound way of not only doing past life regressions but also involves contacting and receiving guidance from the person's Higher Self.

The sessions are long... sometimes 4 hours, but the time flies by due to how interesting they are.

I don't know how each session will ultimately unfold. That's up to a higher intelligence than mine. I do know, however, that the individual going through the process will leave with a better understanding of who they were, who they are, and who they may become.

And in these times of uncertainty that is a beautiful thing.

Are you good at revealing vulnerability? I have to admit that is something I still need to work on.

It's not easy for me to ask for help or reveal that I am struggling with something. Even with those closest to me I will sometimes pretend that I am fine and all is well.

I would tell myself that I was being strong and self sufficient when I didn't share my problems or worries. That, somehow, by not revealing that I was in physical or emotional pain I was lessening that pain.

I now understand that when we are vulnerable with each other and open about our struggles we are better able to connect and help each other through trying times.

Over the past while I have had to reveal much that I would have preferred not to disclose. And instead of being weakened by those disclosures I was able to find strength from being truly authentic with those I shared my truth with. I have benefited greatly from the compassion and empathy I experienced and I was also able to get much needed support for the things I was struggling with.

If you are in a place where you are suffering in silence because you don't want to burden others with your issues please consider this. We humans are wired for deep connection. And you cannot have a deep connection with someone if they don't know the breadth of who you are.

So, please, be vulnerable with those you can trust with those vulnerabilities. It will do us all good.

I've been wondering of late who we will be after COVID has run it's course and life returns to some semblance of normalcy.

Will we appreciate having the freedom to move about as we please?

Will we be kinder because of the fear and discomfort we've experienced?

Will we choose to be more aware of the fragility of life?

Will we be more evolved as a species?

Only time will provide the answers to these questions.

Personally, I am going to love harder, hug longer and greater appreciate being in the presence of those I care for.

How about you?

Who will you be after COVID?

I've attempted to write this post several times but found it impossible to put my feelings into words until today.

On January 1st my dear friend Natisha passed away. I will miss her physical presence more than words can say. She became a Reiki student of mine many, many moons ago, went to all of my workshops and was an integral part of the creation of Higher Realm Healing®, in which she became one of the first practitioners.

I could count on her support no matter what workshop I taught, or psychic fair I attended, and she was a wonderful sounding board when I was exploring some new spiritual idea.

She was deeply spiritual, wonderfully creative, delightfully irreverent and fiercely loyal to those she loved. Through her I was blessed to become friends with her sister, Nicolle, who also was there for every workshop and new idea I explored. I also got to know Lucas (her nephew) and Catherine, her Mum. During these past years Nicolle, Lucas and Catherine have become more precious to me than they will ever know.

Like the warrior she was, Natisha bravely fought the disease that eventually claimed her life. Her courage was evident through every procedure she endured and every hospital stay. And even at her lowest points her concern was more for her family than herself.

I am honoured to have known and loved Natisha. I will miss her...