Are you good at revealing vulnerability? I have to admit that is something I still need to work on.

It's not easy for me to ask for help or reveal that I am struggling with something. Even with those closest to me I will sometimes pretend that I am fine and all is well.

I would tell myself that I was being strong and self sufficient when I didn't share my problems or worries. That, somehow, by not revealing that I was in physical or emotional pain I was lessening that pain.

I now understand that when we are vulnerable with each other and open about our struggles we are better able to connect and help each other through trying times.

Over the past while I have had to reveal much that I would have preferred not to disclose. And instead of being weakened by those disclosures I was able to find strength from being truly authentic with those I shared my truth with. I have benefited greatly from the compassion and empathy I experienced and I was also able to get much needed support for the things I was struggling with.

If you are in a place where you are suffering in silence because you don't want to burden others with your issues please consider this. We humans are wired for deep connection. And you cannot have a deep connection with someone if they don't know the breadth of who you are.

So, please, be vulnerable with those you can trust with those vulnerabilities. It will do us all good.

I've been wondering of late who we will be after COVID has run it's course and life returns to some semblance of normalcy.

Will we appreciate having the freedom to move about as we please?

Will we be kinder because of the fear and discomfort we've experienced?

Will we choose to be more aware of the fragility of life?

Will we be more evolved as a species?

Only time will provide the answers to these questions.

Personally, I am going to love harder, hug longer and greater appreciate being in the presence of those I care for.

How about you?

Who will you be after COVID?

I've attempted to write this post several times but found it impossible to put my feelings into words until today.

On January 1st my dear friend Natisha passed away. I will miss her physical presence more than words can say. She became a Reiki student of mine many, many moons ago, went to all of my workshops and was an integral part of the creation of Higher Realm Healing®, in which she became one of the first practitioners.

I could count on her support no matter what workshop I taught, or psychic fair I attended, and she was a wonderful sounding board when I was exploring some new spiritual idea.

She was deeply spiritual, wonderfully creative, delightfully irreverent and fiercely loyal to those she loved. Through her I was blessed to become friends with her sister, Nicolle, who also was there for every workshop and new idea I explored. I also got to know Lucas (her nephew) and Catherine, her Mum. During these past years Nicolle, Lucas and Catherine have become more precious to me than they will ever know.

Like the warrior she was, Natisha bravely fought the disease that eventually claimed her life. Her courage was evident through every procedure she endured and every hospital stay. And even at her lowest points her concern was more for her family than herself.

I am honoured to have known and loved Natisha. I will miss her...

Our bodies are perfectly designed to communicate with us and let us know where we may need to focus our attention. Therefore, paying attention to what's going on in our physical body will often allow us to know where we are on all  levels of our Being.

As we experience an emotion its frequency may  either help Heal or harm our body.

Positive emotions raise the Being to a Higher frequency/vibration and allow for the body’s systems to operate smoothly and be in alignment with a perfectly functioning physical system.

Negative emotions degrade the body’s systems and allow for dis-ease to take root. Our bodies may actually become weaker or stronger depending on our mental state.

Feelings of shame, apathy, grief, fear, anxiety, craving, anger and hate resonate at the lowest vibratory rate.

Feelings of Love, trust, optimism, acceptance, understanding, joy and reverence resonate at the highest vibratory rate.

Injuries or pain often appear on one side of our body. One-sided pain issues may reflect the side that feels confused or unsupported:

1. The left side of our physical body responds to stimulus from the environment. It holds the experiences, emotions and memories from the past of the present lifetime as well as from Past Lives.
2. The right side of our physical body governs how we interact with the world around us. If there are issues regarding unwanted changes in the environment they will often show up here.
3. The front of our physical body reveals the social or public self. It reveals information regarding our openness, acceptance, and overall way of Being. This shows in our face, posture and body language.
4. The back of our physical body reflects our private and unconscious way of Being. It’s the storehouse for all the things we don't want to reveal. Negative emotions may easily become stored along the spine and the backs of the legs.

If we pay attention we can learn much about what our body is trying to reveal.

Some time ago I had the honour of being touched by an Angel and that encounter has me seeing things from a higher perspective.

The encounter with the Angel began ordinarily enough. I had been out running errands in the midst of another busy day. After picking up some much needed office supplies I got the urge to visit another store. It hadn't been my intention to make another stop but before I knew it I was in the Winners parking lot. I checked my watch, reminded myself that I didn't really have time to spare, then surrendered to the urge and entered the store.

I wasn't there for more than a few heartbeats when I found myself encountering  a group of special needs women and their caretakers. As I walked by I smiled as I heard the group talk excitedly about the treasures around them.

I moved to another aisle where I could still hear them and see a few treasures for myself. As I was looking at some decorative items I felt a presence nearby. I looked to see a young and beautiful Soul from the group watching me. When I smiled at her she came over to me, took my hand in hers, and stood quietly beside me.

In the few moments we stood there holding hands, not speaking, I felt an incredible wash of Peace and Love flow through me. Her energy was calm, loving and one of the highest in vibration I've encountered in a Human.

I sent her a silent 'thank you' and she smiled at me then went back to her group. I had to blink back tears at the feelings coursing through me. Gone was my tiredness... gone was any physical discomfort from pushing my body past its physical limits...gone was the need to rush through the day trying to get things done as quickly as possible. In their place was Blessed Peace.

I slowly walked from the store and sat for a few minutes in my car reliving the experience and feeling immensely grateful for what had transpired. As I drove home I marveled at how effortlessly this Beautiful Soul was able to embody the Peace I have to search for. She knew how to simply Be.

From now on, like her, I am going to focus on Being... not just doing. Because I was touched by an Angel who so lovingly showed me how.

I have been focusing on preparing for the new normal, even though I am uncertain of what that will look like.

Some individuals are anxious to get back to how things were before Covid 19 but I have a sense that trying to get back to what was will not serve us as well as adapting to a new way of Being will.

We will all be changed by this experience and it's up to us to determine whether that change will result in becoming a better version of our selves or a less desirable version of our selves.

I'm digging deep and looking for the good that has come from this experience. My husband and I are actually enjoying the extra time we've been able to spend with each other so that definitely goes into the good category.

We've also been creative in how we stay connected to family members. I will be eternally grateful for the technology that allows me to interact with those I love without risking their, or my, health.

These are, indeed, challenging times but I know we all have the ability rise to the challenge and come through this as more grateful and compassionate beings who will prosper in the new normal.

During these challenging times I have been witnessing the best and the worst of us.

I am heartened by how many us us are working toward the Greatest Good and doing what we need to do to protect ourselves, our loved ones and humanity.

I am also disheartened by the few who are behaving in a way that puts us all at risk. I pray they will see the Light and begin to behave in a way that harms none.

Times are tough.. but so are we.

People are frightened... but still have hope.

I am concerned... but also convinced that we will come through this with a better understanding of who we want to be and where we want to go.

I find myself, yet again, navigating the grieving process. Over the past few years I've been given the opportunity to learn much about grieving the loss of those I have loved but going through the process hasn't gotten easier.

My father in law has passed away and today we will be having a celebration of his life. The will be laughter and tears. Both are appropriate.

I couldn't have loved Donnie more than I did and I will miss his physical presence in my life, greatly.

I will treasure the memories I have of his kindness and intelligence. He was a truly great man.